Transitions

This is a free flowing post.... A couple of heavy things happened this week: I finally disposed all of ex's letters and most of our pictures. Thanks to a friend who helped me on this. I finally told my family about the breakup. I deleted all of our pictures on Facebook. I told my two closest aunts about the cancelled wedding. And, by tomorrow, I'm scheduled to finally change my FB status, send an email to relatives abroad and a PM to close friends who gave their pledges for the wedding. Unburdened..... relieved..... but, some emotions had to surface out again. This is one of the moments when I just want to go out, be with someone, sit with a friend, be surrounded with people. May the Angels guide me in attracting the "proper" souls to be with. *xoxo*

*Kilig* Moments - ITS NOT ME! Its a friend! As she told us her story a while ago, although there may be some glitches with the intentions of the other guy, she still is so flattered and so happy! This friend just came from a broken relationship, but here she is, standing again. I admire how brave she is. No matter how stern we warn her that she may get hurt, she still seems to go on with the flow and nurture her shivery, fuzzy, positively chilling moments. I remembered the song I've fallen For You. I think it suits how she feels now.

What is this I'm feelin'  I just can't explain
When you're near I'm just not the same
I'm tryin' to hide it Try not to show it
It's crazy How could it be

I've fallen for you  Finally, my heart gave in
And I'm fallen in love  I finally know how it feels

When you said hello I looked in your eyes
Suddenly, I felt good inside  Is this really happenin'
Or am I just dreaming I guess, it's true
I can't believe I've fallen for you
Finally, my heart gave in And I'm fallen in love
I finally know how it feels So this is love

Doesn't matter where I am Thoughts of you still linger in my mind
No matter what time of day I've really, really  Fallen for you

With the enlightenment of Jesus, I declare: I have overcome the denial stage!

After 4 months, I have finally accepted the truth: Me and M are no longer a couple! M is my EX!

See how my goals changed:
First, I simply wanted to win M back!
Then, I revised it by saying: Yes, I still want to win him back.... BUT, I want to learn to love myself first."
Now, here's what I am praying for:

"Lord, please grant my wish of having a complete and happy family. If M can give me that, then, please enlighten his mind to reconcile with me. But, if M cannot give me that, and there is a person way better than him, then, let it be. But, please give me a sign if You are about to introduce to me my One true Love, so that I can brush on a little makeup!"

Next step: Go on with healing myself. Continue meeting new friends. Actively participate in a ministry. Learn to love myself! Learn to love God before loving other people!

If I may add: My One True Love must love God above everything else, even before loving me!

Denial Stage: Goodbye!